The lifestyle that I had at that time was really simple. I lived in a 500k rupiah kosan; I try to cook as much as possible and mostly veggies because it's the cheapest option; I would go to local Padang Restaurant, get a take away ayam balado and steamed cassava leaf and ate at home because I cooked rice to have less expense; and no, I usually didn't go out on weekends because I had no money.
Even though it was a simple life, I felt really wealthy from the experiences that I gain. I went to yoga class that is taught by world class teacher for donation based; I met many healers whom happily gave me a free sessions (I'm gifted with several health challenges); and above other things, I learnt that we are all teacher and student. Even little kid can be a great teacher for us.
I realised that I can't give what I don't have to the students.
After 7 months of teaching, I started to feel that teacher kindy students isn't for me. 5 days a week, 8 hour of work, and low salary, it wasn't at all a good sustainable living for me.
I can't give a vibrant-happy class, if I don't feel vibrant with my body. I can't help them to be creative, if I feel exhausted after 12 pm. And I can't help my students to reach their full potential, if I don't feel in my peak potential.
So I decided that I need to quit for my own wellbeing (and I also need to come back to Bandung to finish my f-ing law thesis. My brother even went to Ubud to gave me some *understanding* of the situation lol).
Then another door opened.
Just when I was about to quit, I met a guy named Kimmana. This meeting is purely coincidence (I will talk more about our love story in separate post :) ), and I didn't expect that it took me to where I am now.
After getting to know each other for a month, just before I left to Bandung, we decided that we wanted to meet up again, simply because we're in love (and that I don't believe in long distance relationship).
Long story short, I sucessfully finished my law thesis defense in my 7th year of uni, and I didn't know what I wanted to do at that time.
Then Kimmana offer me a job at the place where he work in Thailand as his assistance, and also to help his friend, a lovely thai lady who need help to promote her jungly bungalows.
And that was the best decision I've ever made (again).
It was pretty crazy though, as my family didn't allow me to go. But, I had such a strong pull that If I stayed in Bandung, it would kill my self slowly as I don't live my highest purpose.
And living and working in Thailand, was tough. The first few months, I had difficulty to adapt because it such a different environment to what I used to (and trust me, I'm actually pretty good on adapting and this place is like no other). The people, the lifestyle, the barefoot, the parties, the activities, the alternative healing wisdoms, it took a good few months until I can understand what people actually talking about.
I didn't understand what rolfing was, nor know much about tantra. I didn't get it why people are so fussy about glutten free, and dairy free. I never had a bodywork training, nor joined a yoga retreat. I was confused why people put so much attention to what's happening with the stars alignment. And I'm so amazed that the people are so good with juggling and other body mastery type of thing (walking on fire!).
It was fun, until I wonder again what all of this mean?
Why I experienced this in my life, when most of Indonesian doesn't even heard anything about it?
There must be some reason for this.
After a good one year where my mind is occupied with the thought of what I should do now, I realised that I need to share the things that I learnt and experienced back to Indonesian.
The mean girl side of me.
At the beginning, the mean girl side of me always said to myself, "Who would like to hear your babble? Who are you teaching other people?"
And this thought, woah, brought me down many times.
Luckily, I have such a support system who kept encouraging and believing in me to do what I need to do.
And that's when I gave birth to my baby.
No, it's not real baby lol. It's a project that I called Urban Health Indonesia (the name will be changed soon), that Kimmana and I co-created to help and empower Indonesian to live a more holistic life.
It was such a honor for me to learnt and experienced many incredible things in the world, and this project is my offering to share all the goodness that life has offered.
Here's my purpose.
(For now) I believe if everyone in the world realised their purpose in life, and live the life they were born to do, the world would be such a better place to live where each of us collaborate and co-create such an amazing life together.
Why did I say for now? Because I also believe that in different stage of life, I might have another purpose and task to fulfil.
Until it change again, I would definitely enjoy it to the max! And hopefully, not too attach with the result :)
Love,
Zia
